Stress overload

I am fully aware of my extremely low stress threshold, and so is everyone else in my vicinity. I will now let you know how moderate stress changes a 'getting-out-of-the-depression-swamp'-person like me.

These are the events:
* I was social the whole day. First with a good friend finally home from Germany, and later as a couples-event with coffee and table games. Both activities were lots of fun, with people I really like, but none the less, elevates the stress level somewhat for some stupid reason.

* The veterinarian called me and explained how cute cat's blood test had failed, at least partially. She wanted me to retake the test at another clinic, and was willing to reimburse me, but not fully (200 euro already spent on this specific test). When she wants me to retake it without reimbursing me fully, she forces me to pay much more than 200 euros to get the blood test results. I have to AGAIN pay the fixed costs for: meeting the new veterinarian (55 euro), material costs (surely another 50 euro), and cost for the extra analysis (at least another 100 euro). If she reimburses me with say half the price for the first test (100 euro), I will still have to pay another 200 euro, in total then 300 euro for getting those results I from start with payed her 200 euro to get. Do I need to say I am in contact with insurance companies, and consumer guidance. If she couldn't deliver all the results I payed for, I don't think it is reasonable for me to pay for the few that she actually managed to produce. Do you?

* I am serious contemplating not to retake the test, but have no-one qualified to discuss it with (no-one that does not make his/her living on me putting cute cat through expensive treatments). It is so highly unlikely that he actually has a problem with his blood clotting (as she is semi-suspicious about), and even if she gives him a diagnosis with poor clotting capability or something like that. What is there to do about it? Nothing! So what's the point in putting a diagnosis, just for the sake of putting a diagnosis. I guess it could be good to know about poor clotting properties if he is ever to go under the knife. But for me it is enough, in such case, to let the knife-holders know that he has shown indications of poor blood clotting and should be treated thereafter.

* I see my money slipping away from me, with empty promises about test results and treatments. This stresses me out. I (thankfully in co-operation with the insurance company) have already spent 1200 euro on treating a cat that has shown no other signs of illness than a dry nose (which was quickly removed with antibiotics and cortisone). Who wouldn't feel sceptical about continuing a search of... YES in search of what?

* I will be unable to keep my hopes up about going on a potentially nice trip to Australia in February. Since all my money are in some weird place between insurance companies, and veterinarians at the moment, I can't save up to buy the ticket now (when it is necessary). And some feel it would be a disservice to lend me the money. Eventhough I explained how I will be able to repay the loan before going on the trip, and having a cancellation protection so I won't lose more than 100 euro if I for any reason can't/don't want to go when it is time. Apparently I need more education in earning up the money before spending them, which is good, but seeing that I have actually thought this through and made plans for repayment, this should be considered nothing else than borrowing money from the bank for say buying a car. Why not try to help other people when possible, why is it so important to make it on you own. No-one would be able to do anything if you were totally alone anyway. It's just money. New will come, and will be spent again.

Collectively these things (in particular the veterinarian thing) lead to:
* I feel anxious, worried, sad, and totally stressed out
* I slept 1.5 hours tonight
* I haven't been able to eat
* I feel that everyday-events are very hard, too hard, too many weird things happen, and I am not strong enough to tackle them. At least not until after a period of breaking down and crying.

I have now gotten another hour of sleep, and are trying to structure the problems, and ideas how to start dealing with them. I fear this will finish my energy supply, that was supposed to last me through this whole day. A very small thing can disturb me to this magnitude. Please, every day you don't suffer from a depression, be thankful for it.