Heliophobia

I have bought a new pair of sunglasses. And a summer hat. And a cap, but not really a cap, but just the shade/shield part withouth the actual "hat" part. More just a thing around the head, connected to the shielding bit. I would be greatful for insight what this is actually called in proper english/american, if possible. I.e. if people know, if it exists, and if someone is able to grasp my explanation. At least, I am sure you can appreciate that I am ready for summer. I am still waiting though. There were a few weeks of excellent spring weather, but now there has been several weeks of overcast/rain/10C autumn weather. But soon, soon it will be here! The plants are growing slowly. Slowly slowly. Which of course means I get to enjoy them longer, not having all exploding in blossom and withering within a few weeks of hot drought summer*.

There was some sun today, but I did not enjoy it at all. After work I felt it was necessary to fit a 1 h nap before my group therapy thingy. But when I woke up, there was an evil cloud banging with a bat from inside my skull. I have no idea how he got in there, but I think it was some sort of conspiracy between medical side effects, the original reason for medication, working, and having some sort of infection. I can feel my lymph nodes being swollen and aching, but still no sign of disease. I give warm praise to my brilliant immune system. Well, my headache is not as present now, but I have spent most of the time indoors with curtains pulled down wearing my new sunglasses, resting on my couch. An unfortunate way to spend an afternoon/evening, when actually having planned for some excellent therapy and a nice dinner with an old friend. But you don't always get to choose, sometimes your body can make the decisions for you.

Now I'll go back to reading my newly-purchased book "The Game" by Neil Strauss. Brilliantly entertaining!



*I of course want a warm sunny summer too, but when not presented, I can use my newfound skills from cognitive therapy to put the whole thing in a more optimistic perspective. So please, don't miss the opportunity to enjoy this swedish optimism when at its best. Check out my blog frequently, you can learn a lot about finding a positive angle to anything!